What Balance?

Another attempt a blogging. I've failed at it so many times, among other goals I've set for myself. I need a way to stay accountable and my real life friends and family don't always get it. Or maybe I just don't see that they get it. 

I'm trying to find balance in my life where I feel like there is none right now. I want to be a good wife, good mom, good friend, good teacher and a good person to myself but I can't seem to juggle all of those roles at the same time. How do you pick which role suffers? 

With summer right around the corner, I can somewhat leave my teacher hat at school except for the days when I have training (oh joy! Can't wait for those) and hopefully start working on making myself better. If I felt better about how I look and feel I think it would improve how I do at all of my other jobs. It's just making that happen.

I truly feel like I have a food addiction and I don't know where to start in getting that under control. I do really well eating healthy meals and working out for about 2 weeks and then I un-do all of my hard work and gain back all of the weight I lost, plus some. I know what I should eat and what I should do to work out but I don't do it. I shovel the cake and cookies and chips and soda in my pie hole and then regret it right after. Once I've started eating like an idiot I can't stop. I've tried having an accountability partner to keep me on track but the ones I've had usually end up falling off the wagon too so we both end up spiraling out of control. Misery loves company, right?

So I've ended up here. I'm hoping the World Wide Web will be my accountability partner.  If I put it out there (assuming people read this), hopefully I can make some changes and find some balance in my life.